eally stressed out about so many things right now. I don't even know why.I feel like I'm running on empty. Spiritually running on empty. I think I have been for sometime now. It isn't that I'm shying away from God; it's that I'm trying to just manage my life on my own with me in the driver seat and God more of a passenger than anything.
If I'm really honest with myself I think I am having a hard time trusting God with the things in my life right now. I'm convinced that this age can put a lot of stress on someone. The decisions I am making right now, as well as in the next few years, are ones that will ultimately shape the rest of my life. That's a bit scary.
I'm just a kid.
What will be left when I've drawn my last breath
Besides the folks I've met and the folks who know me
Will I discover a soul-saving love or
Just the dirt above and below me
I'm a doubting Thomas
I took a promise
But I do not feel safe
Oh me of little faith
Sometimes I pray for a slap in the face
Then a bed to be spared cause I'm a coward
If there's a master of death I'll bet he's holding his breath
Cause' I show the blind and tell the deaf about his power
I'm a doubting Thomas
I can't keep my promises
Cause' I don't know what's safe
Oh me of little faith
Can I be used to help others find truth
When I'm scared I'll find proof that it's a lie
Can I be lead down a trail dropping bread crumbs
That prove I'm not ready to die
Please give me time to decipher the signs
Please forgive me for time that I've wasted
I'm a doubting Thomas
I'll take Your promise
Though I know nothing's safe
Oh me of little faith.
-Nickel Creek
I still have much to be thankful for.
Thank you for loving me guys, because sometimes I don't deserve it.
love.
4 comments:
ppsssh, you are great.
i'm sure you dont want the advice of someone younger than you, but i'm just going to throw it out there:
i know its really easy to do this...but you shouldnt think about everything that you feel is wrong about you at once...that gets sad and overwhelming. take it one at a time...that seems to work best - but maybe for you it doesnt.
i think you already know that though. so! you should do something fun today.
I have been feeling the same way lately too. It's so hard to allow God to take the wheel when the future is so uncertain. It's hard to trust when there's always that little voice whispering doubts. I can't help but feel that it's normal in a Christian's walk, though. That's why God brings other Christian friends and family into our lives, to support us and love us, even when we feel so undeserving.
Well everyone's already said anything of significance, so i'm just here to tell you that you are a good leader. I understand that your a leader in alot of things right now, and even with all the stress you still do a great job as a worship team leader.
love,
Abigail
Just thought you should know that you aren't alone in your feelings about life and being anxious. Sometimes that helps me, just to know that there are others that you can go through life with and share the same troubles!you have some cool friends!
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