time travel...

Dear Roberta Sparrow, I have reached the end of your book and... there are so many things that I need to ask you. Sometimes I'm afraid of what you might tell me. Sometimes I'm afraid that you'll tell me that this is not a work of fiction. I can only hope that the answers will come to me in my sleep. I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to.



















:)

love.

but she stopped running months ago...

I HATE being alone.

"cause all you see
is where else you could be
when you're at home

and out on the streets
are so many possibilities
to not be alone."
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[death cab for cutie]

sigh.

love.

a generous misunderstanding

I've been completely ignorant to how a lot of Americans view Christianity. In my Politics and Religion class I get a taste of the generally misled thought of what the state of the church in America is.

Something should be probably done to change this view.

I hope I can do something to create a more positive image about what Christ's message was. Not sacrificing beliefs, but making positive change, and being positively good helping others.

Does anyone else experience this?


love.

let go

and so i'm letting go.


for now.

boy this has rattled my nerves (to say the least).

love.

jesus camp pt 2.

On the eve of the film's release, Ted Haggard has disowned the movie Jesus Camp, saying that it misrepresents evangelicals and puts them in a sinister light. The film follows kids who attend a Bible camp where they pray for the country and speak in tongues. Haggard is among the most prominent names to be featured in the movie ...9/15/06 | 12:19 PM


hmmm.


love.

And it got us to think about living our lives for what's right...

Entrance Music: Phantom Planet - The Guest

Hi. I'm not even sure who reads this still, but I'm going to write anyways because it feels good and right and natural and I want to. So there.

Do you ever feel like things just pile up and pile up. Not all at once. It creeps up on you slowly over time. You keep feeling this nagging in you that you continually suppress until it seems nonexistent, but that never helps it just comes back a little bigger and a little more intense than the previous time. The voice is pretty persistent. I suppose that's Holy Spirit. I suppose that the voice has been speaking to me for a while now.

I think I got a lot of things out in the open this weekend.

I think (I hope) I've made a lot of decisions about my life - at least for the time being - and what I'm going to focus my energy on.

I know this is probably personal but I have my reasons for being so vulnerable. I've spent so much of my time wishing that a girl would fill my lonely heart. I have never been too long withouth someone in my life filling that part, but I haven't had a great deal of luck in that department. A lot of it has been due to my immaturity as a person, but another part I believe is that it's just not the right time. So I guess with that thought and a LOT of thinking I've set my mind to not be looking for any sort of relationship this year. I need to stop thinking of my singleness as a disorder and start viewing it as a blessing. God has me here. I don't know why. I don't know why I am supposed to be single right now, but I'm going to quit trying to find someone and just find Him. That sounds a bit cheesy for my taste, but it's really what I feel.

The thought it scary and exciting. I have never really tried to stay away from relationships, but for this school year I'm going to remain single. I suppose that is why I'm being open about this because if you are reading this than you can keep my accountable for what I'm trying to set myself to. There is so much in my life that needs to gather all of my attention. My family. My friends. School. My God! Besides, I will be plenty busy with interning and other things to devote a healthy amount of time to someone right now.

I'm a bit nervous about all of this, and I am asking that you pray for me as I embark on something that might seem silly to many of you, but it's something that I think is going to be beneficial in the long run.

I pray that God will use this time to grow me, stretch me, and shape me into a better man, boyfriend, husband, father.... in time.

Sigh.





















love.

coming soon

I have lots to say.

I'll write it out soon.

love.